An Assault Victim Finds Hope

Typically, when we hear the term “post-traumatic stress disorder” (PTSD), we automatically think about veterans, who are often the most heavily impacted by the frightening effects of PTSD.  But we know that PTSD can develop after a very stressful, frightening or distressing event, or after a prolonged traumatic experience. 

Antuanette Gomez is a PTSD sufferer and while she experiences some of the “typical” PTSD symptoms like numbness, anxiety, and a mix of physical and mental issues, as a victim of sexual assault, she was also experiencing pain during intercourse and sexual anxiety as well.   It was after listening to a doctor speak about CBD and PTSD at a Women Grow Summit, she started to truly understand the volume of people living every day in pain – not just physical, but mental.  Her next step was to begin working with Soldiers of Creation, a gender inclusive resource center in Toronto that helps survivors of assault. 

In the months after Gomez was raped, she used the center as a resource to learn about her own trauma and discovered that cannabis would become a pivotal catalyst for her own healing.  She conquered sleepless nights by learning to calm her troubled mind – she has a vaporizer  next to her bed, and finds that smoking/vaping cannabis was the fastest way for her rape-induced-PTSD anxiety at night. 

Her low libido was a result of the shame and guilt from her rape, and sex was painful.  She and her partner talked about the experience together and learned how to communicate.  Unfortunately, that didn’t eliminate the physical pain she experienced during intercourse, and once again, cannabis provided a potential solution.  Gomez tried cannabis suppositories, usually recommended for women with endometriosis and fibroids, and found they gave her back her sex drive, but also helped her reproductive system truly relax and she was elated.

Today, Gomez is the founder of Pleasure Peaks, a company specializing in Cannabis Pleasure Counselling among other services.  They help people learn how cannabis can be used for pain, but also for “pleasure management.”  Pleasure Peaks partners with Soldiers of Creation, who also call her an educator in their practice.  Pleasure Peaks sells a “Sisters Pipe” for which 50% of each sale goes back to Soldiers of Creation.  Gomez has found a way to not only get her life back, but make her negative experience one that makes her stronger AND fuels her career to help others.

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(Photo courtesy of Antuanette Gomez)

“I’m just calm”

Brandon Sparks, of USMC, finds calm with cannabis.

Brandon Sparks, 19, saw more at his young age than many men will see in a lifetime on a dark night in 1996.  Sparks would recall 20 years later the horror of the night when two US Marine Corps helicopters collided in mid-air claiming the lives of 14 marines.

A member of the Quick Reaction force, Sparks was called to the scene with fellow teammates to recover the bodies of the fallen and in a North Carolina swamp, that’s not an easy task in any type of weather or light conditions.  That moment in time would change his life forever, as he recalls his exposure to the sheer carnage of retrieving bodies that had literally been hacked to pieces by the tail rotor of one of the aircraft.  Sparks said of that night, “I just kinda started falling apart.”  He would leave the USMC within a year and squashed his memories of that fateful night into the corners of his mind for the next 20 years, when he was finally diagnosed with PTSD – post traumatic stress disorder.  

In 2018, Sparks would apply for and receive his medical marijuana card in an effort to lower the use of five different kinds of medication to treat his insomnia, bipolar disorder, as well as anxiety, depression, and insomnia.  Smoking cannabis flower has led him to a place where he says he has been able to reduce his medications and only take pharmaceuticals for bipolar and anxiety.  

Today, Sparks says “I wake up in the morning, I have a cup of coffee and I smoke a bowl or smoke a vape and within 20 minutes I’m just calm, I’m not over processing things in my brain.  I’m not hypervigilant, I don’t have a ton of thoughts.”  A true believer in the power of the plant medicine offered by cannabis, Sparks is now a 42-year-old father to three girls in Buffalo, New York. 

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